I watched a movie a couple nights ago "About Time". I found it gentle, endearing and it entered into my brain with the reminder of my New Year's resolution. It was really good. I like to catch movies once and a while that can actually sneak into my heart and tell me what I already know but need to hear once and a while.

But only sometimes. Other times I like guns, violence, blood, hilarity and things that take away from the usual day to day life. Isn't that what movies are supposed to do for the most part? Tell a story that gets you out of your own story?

Anyway, if you're in the mood for a slower, gentler, quieter evening and a movie that doesn't scare, thrill or drill you in the brain - About Time is a good one. I thought it was sweet.

I shouldn't be blogging, but I never really have a time when I should be. I made my grocery list for the week and really need to get into the shower before I attempt to see people outside of my home.

Today's requirements are insulating part of the basement ceiling, providing food for the family, painting a stairwell, and prepping a concrete floor for rug installation. Blogging seems like it would be way more fun.

Unfortunately, I have nothing to say. My heart is a little sore with SS over. I realize I've been offended towards him, and I find it easy to turn off my love towards him with the slightest offence. I'm constantly reminded that being offended towards someone has nothing to do with the person you are upset with - it's actually a condition of your own heart. And while I realize this, sometimes sitting in the dark places is more "fun" than shining the light in there.

Aren't we funny as people? Sometimes we would rather be upset, fuming, and festering, than just dealing with our issues and moving into joy? I also find it easy to stay in those dark places easier and longer, the more I practice it.

I was listening to a speaker the other day talking about Thankfulness. It's something you choose and the more you choose it, the more you're drawn to it. That really goes for everything if you think about it.

Whatever you choose to put your heart into, you will find yourself drawn continually towards that.

But thankfulness....thankfulness is something that I take for granted that I do. Do you get what I'm saying? I assume I'm thankful! I feel like I am, but I don't take a deliberate motion to actually say that I am thankful out loud.

I'm going to start doing this with my daughter. When we wake up, journal 3 things that I'm thankful for. Waking up with a mindset of thankfulness is something that I don't do. When I wake up (and after I cry softly about it being morning so soon), preparing my mindset for a praise and joyful start is the last thing on my mind. Getting lunches in backpacks, prepping my daughter for school, surviving the hour before school starts and I have to respond to questions with coherent answers - that is what I do.

So, with my crummy attitude from this morning toward SS, I shall look past that dark corner in my heart and choose joy and thankfulness. My three things today are:

1) 2 dogs who are friends and play with happy growls - fills my house with joy and loudness
2) my laptop so I can sit in bed and accomplish many things
3) Sobey's grocery flyers - seriously, how would I be able to afford to feed my family without sales?